Monday, September 08, 2003
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omg.. havent been posting recently, due to the workload.. been pretty busy and brain been very empty at all times.. When i need to concentrate.. i dont ... Mind juz dont seems to be in place.. I dont even know where i gotta stand in few yrs time .. Things all look so bleak.... Wish i am more talented.. more gifted.. nicer looking.. thinner.. There r so many disgruntled stuffs tat i dont like.. and wish to have...
Patrick 12:01:00 AM
Mon is the main demo for the client... project aint truely completed and i can senses tat my boss might juz explode and cost myself the job, if i aint gotta give a good demo... This means so much to him... Gosh sure hope i can live up to it ..
Come to think of it, i been living in the expectation of others.. Many a time, i dont even know wat i want.. Tat's reall pathetic... Fuck sia.. Mayb i aint mean to be an programmer.. Mayb i am lack of the logical mind.. Mayb i m lack of the determination .. Mayb i aint supposed to be in IT line... So many mayb... so many uncertainty... I am going into a spiral of confusion, an abyss of depression again .. Bloody hell.... GRRRRrRrRRRrRRrr
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