Simply......

Wednesday, April 09, 2003

 

Happy thoughts, tat wat ashlee encourages me to do .. But happy thoughts seems to be eluding me like plague...

So here am i wallowing in my pessimistic thoughts again...

Am i tat detest ? Or am i juz another fucking bastard in the world ?

Tested water today .... Seems to me like it's fucking deep..

Chances to attain the goal seems so near yet so far..
Think it's time to let go

The bitter taste of defeat.. Ahh .. So familar and i really dislike the taste

I know myself tat i aint a persistant person.. A few setbacks are all i need to get my confidence crushed ...

At this state, it does seem so tis way ..

I am juz an irritating snot.. gasping for attention..

A fren once quoted my current suitation as defeatism..

Another quoted tat i am trying to rush things

One even say i dont deserve the companion

Mayb they're rite...

I AM SO FUCKING TIRED NOW !!

SICK AND TIRED !!
Dont worry .. it's not SARS, it's just PQLC

Patrick 11:48:00 PM

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