Simply......

Saturday, March 22, 2003

 

Had another gathering with some frens .. It didn't reall turn out all tat well .. Wat was supposed to be a bachelor dinner ended up with another guest star coming in to join us .. I was caught totally unprepared .. Not tat i dont welcome tis guest star .. In fact, i was delighted to have her joining us .. But alas .. the late nites over the week and pissed mood .. Tis aint exactly the right time for the outing .. but nevertheless i still went .. dont think i wanna spoilt anyone mood.. Throughout the whole event, I was damn quiet .. not really knowing wat to say .. tongue tied i guess ..but still i tried to make conversation ...

Mayb i am the kinda 'shy' guy .. esp with ladies around .. always lacking of confidence, prob low self esteem too .. Didnt really carry out the conversation as well as the others ..
Had lots of cigs and almost 2 glasses of liquor to help boost watever little courage / mood to carry on with the outing .. even when i know the guest star dont really approve to wat i am doing .. but .. sigh ... I still did it .. At the end of it all .. DID wat i think any other guys should do .. Send the lady home .. Hmm mayb it backfired .. I dont know .. In any case, my senses aint with me anymore .. ARGH .. dont think i wanna write anymore... it's getting depressing ..


DEPRESSION MODE AGAIN

DEPRESSION MODE AGAIN

DEPRESSION MODE AGAIN

DEPRESSION MODE AGAIN

DEPRESSION MODE AGAIN

Patrick 2:49:00 AM

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